heartache

my heart aches.. i want to go away.. i think i've run away many times.. i run away from my problems.. i ever face them.. i want to be free. i hate people controlling me.. telling me what to do.. no one deserves to do that.. is it so easy torturing me.. yelling at me.. i guess i'm that easy.. i don't like it and i want to go away.. but i can't.. i'm stuck.. o God please help me.. i need to get away.. i can't stay...

tiring day

group meeting @ 11.30am.. supposed to start @10am but a member couldn't make it so postponed the meeting... then research and now i have to finish my homework.. don't feel like going to office hours but i dont think i can finish it myself... sucks nyer... hmm.. have to get back to that.. ok.. later

Today

Today... today's interesting... it takes a great person to entertain others with different opinions. hmm... as usual... wishing for the best... the quiz pretty much sucked... i think it was bad.. i guess some people could do it well.. is it just me? argh.. ya Allah.. please let me go through with this semester and next semester... and then I'm done.. i really don't think I can take it anymore... it was a big test.. my life in CMU and I think I pretty much failed this big test I've been put upon... I haven't succeed in much but I survived.. at least I have that... nothing to be proud of actually... to be able to survive does not mean I aced it... hmm... whateverlah.. please let it be over soon.. and may good things come... but I do wish I will succeed in life.... I want to be able to do something meaningful.. that will help a lot of people.. and help me as well.. just I don't think I can do it at this school.. maybe when I'm free insyaAllah.. help me God... :)

mm hmm

yeay... thoughts straight from my heart...